mlsg on yahoo

well i'm really not sure whether i will continue using my mlsg account on yahoo. the few people i'm friends with..G*d only knows how i actually became friends with a nick like that..the few people i am friends with i already talk with else where.....the rest..well most wouldn't care if i disappeared off the face of the earth..and the others make endless unrealistic demands of me calling me all sorts of unpleasant names or making accusations when i don't get on my knees for them.

before i forget to mention there are two or three that are nice and i'm going to try and remember who they are so i can keep in touch with them.

it's just all so ridiculous..calling me a fake because i won't immediately drop my life and kids and all responsibilities to help them get off. i mean really..for f*cks sake when will people realise this is just online. what works for me in real life doesn't necessarily work for me online. that doesn't mean i lie here. i don't. i'm as honest as i can be while maintaining some degree of anonymity.

the scary thing is i've met people in 3D ( real life ) who expect the same of me..drop everything..my kids..my studies..my workouts..drop it all to take care of their needs. hey if that's what you are looking for then good luck to you..but in that case you are not what i'm looking for and neither am i what you are looking for. calling me names is not going to make me into what you want. i'm not an ignorant, immature, unintelligent doormat. i have a life and kids and goals and intelligence along with a decent education..and two years of high end counseling to boot. oh and let's not forget a kick ass sponsor who's been where i've been and knows what this sh*t is all about.

it's gonna take one hell of a guy to get through all that cr*p or maybe just a really nice mentally/emotionally healthy one. who knows. i just know i'm sick of the online insanity. hell i'm not even sick of it..i am gone if i even get a whiff of that type of stupidity these days. i'm not going to sit around and be verbally abused by some idiot who seems to think he knows everything there is to know about me from seeing my c*nt half a dozen times. f*ck grow up.

.....and lets not forget to mention that unfortunately most of the people that read this stuff are my friends and are not the particular people i'm writing about now.