You know where to find me SM.

Huggs BigM.

Well the guy i was seeing for about two days turned out to be... hell i dunno what he turned out to be. I have no idea what just happened. People in the program have since told me he's an asshole and still really self centered. Seems to match.

I can't deal with that inconsistent bullsh*t. The guy phones me ten times a day... tells me how much he likes me then disappears for a day... sometimes two. That turns me into an obsessive f*cking lunatic. I can't deal with it. It's too much like psycho exbf... he can contact me whenever he wants and i talk to him but when i contact him he won't have anything to do with me. That's bullsh*t and this new guy was way too much like the ex only at least i understand to a point what's going on with the ex.

He's not an idiot. He knows i'm an addict. He has got to know how that sorta behavior f*cks us up. F*ck he's got over ten years himself. He wanted some little f*cking girl who would jump when he said jump and leave him the f*ck alone the rest of the time while all the time professing to want a relationship and blah blah blah. Man some people just f*ck with my head beyond belief.

You want to f*ck i can do that. You want to try and date i can do that. But don't f*cking tell me one thing and do another. Hell he didn't even wanna f*ck. I dunno wtf he wanted.

Okay that's it. I'm done. Now my sponsor says i just need to phone him and tell him i'm coming to get my sh*t and be done with him. I was gonna wait a couple months but she wasn't going for that at all. After i thought about it i started to agree but i haven't got around to it yet.