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i had the worst f*cking sex of my entire f*cking life two nights ago.
i think the universe puts up with our bullsh*t when we're ignorant and starting out and trying to get things right for the first time. after that, you get slammed. i think i just got slammed.
i haven't met a stranger for sex in quite some time. well if you don't count the guy that gave me 200 bucks. that's a whole other f*cked up topic. anyway, yes i think the last person i had sex with was the 18yr old. a few nights ago i was gonna hook up with him again cause as i've probably said before it's sweet and nice and normal. well if he hasn't talked me into using a strap on on him. :P
the night with the 18yr old didn't work out. it got late etc etc and we both decided to leave it basically. i had almost hooked up with someone else i only know through chatting online either that night or the next night, i don't remember. at the last minute i got a little put off by something he said and i changed my mind and he left p*ssed. i think that was probably the start of the lonely feelings creeping in, not to mention being horny. it just threw me off, someone being mad at me, i think?
so next thing i know i'm meeting some other guy i really don't know that well. 'bout the same age as the other guy, 26. well, how someone ends up not knowing how to have sex at 26 i dunno. it was the worst f*cking experience of my entire f*cking life.
a year ago i woulda given anything for someone to treat me like a gf even though i was just a one night f*ck and for them to sleep over. this guy did all that and wanted to do stuff with me the next day. after a couple hours i was completely f*cking weirded out and thank G*d i have some degree of assertiveness these days cause i just said..listen, would you mind if i drove you home right now cause i don't think i'm going to be able to sleep with someone in the house. he protested but i wouldn't give in so i got him the hell outta here.
i can only believe that it was the universe saying..hey girl you know better than to be pulling this bullsh*t now..bam!!!! it will be a long time before i have sex with a total stranger again. f*ck..nothing is worth that cr*p. i'd sooner masturbate.
now i gotta deal with blowing the guy off online gently cause he knows where the f*ck i live.
i think the universe puts up with our bullsh*t when we're ignorant and starting out and trying to get things right for the first time. after that, you get slammed. i think i just got slammed.
i haven't met a stranger for sex in quite some time. well if you don't count the guy that gave me 200 bucks. that's a whole other f*cked up topic. anyway, yes i think the last person i had sex with was the 18yr old. a few nights ago i was gonna hook up with him again cause as i've probably said before it's sweet and nice and normal. well if he hasn't talked me into using a strap on on him. :P
the night with the 18yr old didn't work out. it got late etc etc and we both decided to leave it basically. i had almost hooked up with someone else i only know through chatting online either that night or the next night, i don't remember. at the last minute i got a little put off by something he said and i changed my mind and he left p*ssed. i think that was probably the start of the lonely feelings creeping in, not to mention being horny. it just threw me off, someone being mad at me, i think?
so next thing i know i'm meeting some other guy i really don't know that well. 'bout the same age as the other guy, 26. well, how someone ends up not knowing how to have sex at 26 i dunno. it was the worst f*cking experience of my entire f*cking life.
a year ago i woulda given anything for someone to treat me like a gf even though i was just a one night f*ck and for them to sleep over. this guy did all that and wanted to do stuff with me the next day. after a couple hours i was completely f*cking weirded out and thank G*d i have some degree of assertiveness these days cause i just said..listen, would you mind if i drove you home right now cause i don't think i'm going to be able to sleep with someone in the house. he protested but i wouldn't give in so i got him the hell outta here.
i can only believe that it was the universe saying..hey girl you know better than to be pulling this bullsh*t now..bam!!!! it will be a long time before i have sex with a total stranger again. f*ck..nothing is worth that cr*p. i'd sooner masturbate.
now i gotta deal with blowing the guy off online gently cause he knows where the f*ck i live.
posted by masters_lil_slutty_grl at 1:21 PM
1 Comments:
thanx MDS..
kisses big M.. i've been forgetting to check your blog these days. gonna go see if you've been keepin up with it now.
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