i gotta get laid today

...or i'm gonna end up inviting a total stranger over by tomorrow nite. i'd rather f*ck someone i've met before although dayum sexy little boy (27yrs old) i was talking to last night was sure tempting...uggghhhhhhh. if i'd been alone..mmmmmmm. i just hate f*cking a guy the first time i meet him though. especially if i don't know him at all. i mean it's not that it's so bad. it's just, i dunno, i don't wanna talk about this right now.

f*cking yahoo is crashing on me like every freakin half hour...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. ummm don't suppose anyone would know what that's about huh? .... any computor geeks horny and need a good f*ck?..lol

hmmm speaking of which i know one that really wants to f*ck me and gonna have to get him to come over today. i can't f*cking stand it i'm soooooooooooo horny. masturbating can only carry you for so long.

i met this guy a few weeks ago. he came over to fix my kid's pc. he asked me online later on what i thought..like meaning what i thought about him. i said i thought i was glad he hadn't killed me. i thought that was pretty funny at the time but counselor and sponsor are always on me about this....."you got no boundaries..you can't do this anymore..you're just lucky no one has killed you yet"..blah blah.....so it's hard to laugh about it these days.

still i've improved. i no longer go into chat rooms at 230am and invite strangers over to f*ck me. i asked one of these guys once if he had this happen much. he said you'd be surprised. it wasn't so much about sex back then though. it was more about not knowing how to be alone at night and feeling lonely. it was all a big distraction so i didn't have to deal with my feelings.

haven't met too many men that were so good in bed i wanted them back badly.

oooh finally computor boy is online......