intravenous drug use...

i dunno how many people realise what a huge iv drug problem Vancouver has. 30% of them have HIV and over 90% have hep C. half my friends have had or have hep C. doesn't seem like any big deal to me now. well other than how sick it can make you and what you have to go through to get well.

i remember a friend outside the program spending the day with me. we talked about anything and everything while walking all around downtown. at one point he mentioned there was something he didn't wanna talk about. i talked him into telling me and it was that he has had hep C. i almost laughed..instead i smiled and said.. "don't worry about it..most of my friends have hep C or have had it". he was so relieved and surprised even though he knew my history. he thought i wouldn't like him or would be freaked out or somethin bein the little suburban momma that i am. it's become so normal to me now though.

it's similar to the idea one of my friends and i were talking one night about relapsing and how dangerous it is, partly cause you go all out cause you know you're gonna have to stop again at some point but partly cause nothing scares you anymore. i'm not saying i'd go start sticking needles in my arm but it doesn't scare me like it used to. half my friends used to be junkies. it just doesn't seem that bad.

now crack..and crank..that's a whole different thing. my crackhead/icehead buddies are whacked man. i mean they are awesome friends and i love them and they've helped me so much..but omg they have a tough time gettin off that stuff. i wouldn't go f*cking near it if you put a gun to my head. i'd shoot f*ckin heroin first.