i feel like i just want to be with him...

but would i even know him anymore? it's been a long time. we've been apart as long as we were together best i can tell. well almost... 3 more months and we will have been apart longer than we were together. that's not to say we haven't seen each other in the last 2 yrs..we have. we've had sex 3 or 4 times. it's hard to believe sitting here now. i haven't seen him since i moved so i guess the sex happened in that first year.

i don't even know how to get close to someone anymore. i'm not willing to give anyone a chance really. as soon as it's not as good i'm gone..and what could possibly measure up to a fantasy.